All that said, though, I'm not without a little homesickness. I mean, I
love the food, the people, the climate, the city, the everything,
really. But I want to share all that with my friends from back home,
y'know? It's pretty much daily where I find myself thinking, "Hey,
so-and-so would love this!" Except that so-and-so is not here, and not
exactly in a position to come visit anyway. What I would give to have
those people here with me now! 
But that's not what I've been wondering. I'm going through some high
school nostalgia right now, but not for the school or for the
experience. I'm starting to miss some of the people I was friends with.
Don't get me wrong, some of the people in my life right now are the best
friends I could ask for, and am I so glad to have met them. But I can't
help but think about how things would be different if I were to go back
as I am right now. What would my life had been life if I was who I am
now, but then?What if I were to go back as I am now, with my new experiences and friendships? How would things be different? Would I be better able to retain those past friendships? Would I have different friendships entirely? I've never been one to have a vast net of people around me, I prefer a smaller group of more close friends. I think I'm still that way, although my new experiences in Singapore are saying otherwise. I guess I'm changing again, eh?
first and fourth photos by me, second photo by mikebaird, third photo by mac.rj
If you could go back...less different for you, young Jack, probably. Really different for me, for I am long years away from school. Am guessing my circle of pals might not be able to understand my futuristic notions, tho I'll try. A mind has to be ready, eh? Their minds are of those days.
ReplyDeleteI’d support established connections, let’s call ‘em that, for my future. I’d go for new relationships, take a chance, because why not? School princess...only a girl figuring out who she might become...”Hey, let’s go out. Don’t look at me like I’m...Not againnn.”
Well, maybe I’ll just invest pocket money in some garage computer guys next time I cross the line into Washington state.
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All your meaningful so-and-so’s back home are as close to you as your vid’phone, y'know. If, however, you somehow were on the moon, you might experience a short lag. So I’ve heard.
hindsight is 20/20, eh? i've got few regrets, though.
ReplyDeleteas for that vid phone... 15 hour time differences are really fun to work with, hah. gotta wake up early to catch people before they go to bed, or vice versa. thinking i'll invest my pocket change in postcards.